Soon, Lord, soon

"By faith I will continue to walk this out. By grace I will stumble and get back up. 

By love I will be carried. By hope I won't give up."

This was how I ended my last post in mid-March, about a month before I began a full time job outside of the home...while finishing out two part time jobs through May.  Today marks 6 months at my full time job, Children's Director at Waypoint Community Church.  It has been stretching, exhausting, frustrating, confusing yet invigorating, exciting and quite fulfilling.  I wasn't ready to go back to work full time, but the opportunity arose and God said yes so I listened.  I've rolled my eyes at Him many times since, thinking how could you say yes!?  So what else has happened since my last post....QUITE. A. BIT.

In May we put our house on the market.  In June we accepted an offer.  In July we moved in with a friend for 5.5 weeks.  We also found our next home and had our offer accepted.  In August we moved into our new home.  Through all of that we had 4 children playing ball May-June.  August to Mid October was football and soccer for all 4 kids.  We still have our 'foster' dog but said goodbye to our oldest dog Bacardi a few weeks ago.  Drew has been doing pretty well and we found a decent way to monitor his seizures at night.  SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED...except the next step in our adoption.

My heart still aches and my mind continues struggling to comprehend the why.  Many days I think of our little girl, this process and how I stated at the beginning of this year if we didn't get the call in 2017, I just didn't think my heart could keep going.  Tears fall almost every day for her, for us, for all who are waiting.  There are only 68 days left in this year.  Please Lord, PLEASE, make it happen. 

The good news is another family who's dossier entered Haiti/IBESR the same time as ours, just received their match.  We just have to be so close.  I will choose to believe that and hope for that call to come soon.  Very soon. 

In the meantime, we will push through each day believing God has her in his hands and he's preparing us and all others for the best time possible.  We will also prepare our home to be her home, our hearts to include hers and even start learning her language so we can communicate better.  If you're the praying kind, please pray for the following:

- peace of mind for me (in my job, parenting role and the adoption)

- ability to create time for our family (just us together)

- Jayla's heart; it yearns for her sister daily

- movement in Haiti regarding adoption cases

- the many families who have been waiting years
- finances to complete our adoption

In His mighty hands we will be victorious! AMEN!